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well-known singer, songwriter, performer, say, okay, there might be a bigger purpose that encompasses that so that if I don't, if I didn't accomplish that in this lifetime, I still might accomplish my overall purpose. I mean, that may not be a purpose in itself. Yes, yes, yes, yes. Is something like that a purpose in itself, or is that just another choice within? It is another choice. A larger purpose. Okay, so even, so if someone thinks that would be the ideal thing in the life and they don't choose to have that manifest, and yet they accomplish their purpose then on an overall basis that wasn't. Understand once again, you as you are are the purpose of this life. To live you. To live as you is the purpose. Now choose how you want to live to live and what you want to do, being true to you. If singing is it, then that will be a reflection of your purpose. If it is not, that is a reflection. If you create the idea as you create the symbolic ideas of success and failure, which not really exist, then understand that the purpose is only to succeed completely as you or fail. completely as you. You follow me. You are the purpose. The methodology of being you is up to you. Okay. But you will always serve the purpose because the only purpose to this life is being you. Okay, I, you know, I, sometimes I wonder who I am because I feel like an actress a lot because I never wanted to be here. I feel like, you know, obviously I did because I'm here. but it's like, I feel, um, at least my physical part of me seems to really resist it and I have for... Resist what? Being here on earth, being in the physical realm. I don't... Allow me to ask you. What do you? What do you imagine would be what you would do in the non-physical realm? I would be, I guess I could do that here. Now, yes, you can. And understand this, you are. Recognize again that even when you create a situation in which it seems you are out of control, since you are spontaneously creating it, you are still spontaneously creating. Even when you create judgment, you are still creating. You are always just as spontaneous in physical reality as you are in non-physical reality, but you can also create the idea in the idea in physical reality that you are not. But even that is a spontaneous creation. Well, I just, it's like I haven't wanted to play within the whole the way the system is set up. Like... Then create your own. You are your own system. There are many, many, many ideas within any particular overall system that you have agreed to quote-unquote share with the mass reality, that you can still change in accord to the system you yourself. happen to be.
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not. But even that is a spontaneous creation. Well, I just, it's like I haven't wanted to play within the whole the way the system is set up. Like... Then create your own. You are your own system. There are many, many, many ideas within any particular overall system that you have agreed to quote-unquote share with the mass reality, that you can still change in accord to the system you yourself. happen to be. Or change yourself, in other words. Or act upon the system you know yourself to be. Act upon the purpose of your life, being you. I feel like a lot of times acting on that has been an escape from wanting to, with the purpose of wanting to escape rather than with the purpose of maybe creating something new. Do you feel in this way that you may be judging that acting as yourself You are saying that this is an escape to use it as an excuse because you feel that if you act as yourself, you will be judged. I, that went right, fine. I don't even know what you said. All right. One more time. Sometimes in your society, individuals will use as an excuse the idea that they think, well, if I act the way I really want to, I will really be escaping from reality. When, in fact, what they mean is, I am afraid to act the way I want to because I fear I will be judged for acting that way. Thus, I will use as a way. an excuse the idea that I will not be really facing reality if I act the way I want to. I have fear that I wouldn't be facing reality if I acted the way I want. I mean, that's legitimate. I really, it's not so much being judged. That is what we just said. Yeah, but you said that's a cover-up for the fear of being judged. But the idea, quote-unquote, of not facing reality, is something that you make a reference to in terms of what you call social pressure. Well, I guess I'm feeling I wonder if my own... If you were the only being in the world... world, you would be the only one to define what is and is not reality. Yes, I know. Therefore, when you say not facing reality, you are saying you assume you are not facing up to what everyone else's opinion of reality seems to be. Yes. I wonder if my overall purpose is to like be able to be in the reality that we share as a math consciousness. To some degree, yes, to some degree. But understand this, because you can also conceive of the idea of your own creative. You can allow yourself to know that doing that can still be enjoyable. It does not have to be something that will be fearsome or fretful. Mm-hmm.
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to be. Yes. I wonder if my overall purpose is to like be able to be in the reality that we share as a math consciousness. To some degree, yes, to some degree. But understand this, because you can also conceive of the idea of your own creative. You can allow yourself to know that doing that can still be enjoyable. It does not have to be something that will be fearsome or fretful. Mm-hmm. I just, um, I just noticed that from, you said the personality, what did you say about the personality? It is an artificial construct. Okay, yeah. And that really bothers me, because I know that. I mean, I see that. I, I, that's what I'm. See that. That's what I feel like I'm always acting. It's like if I act a certain way, I get a certain response from people. If I act this way I wear certain clothes, I get a certain response from people as opposed to other clothes. Allow me to ask you this. That bothers me. One moment. Do you feel that in doing that you are being true to who you are being true to who you are? Or do you feel that you are not being true to who you are by doing that? And that is why it by or do you feel you are being true to who you are and the only thing that bothers you is that you feel you are being judged for being true to who you are. Which one is it? Um, I feel like all those are aspects of who I am. Oh, yes. Okay. Yet it bothers me that I get different responses to the different aspects of myself. I don't know. But by definition, a different aspect has to elicit a different response. Okay, well, that's what I'm trying, you know, that's why I'm trying to. I'm trying, you know, that's where I'm working out here. Yes. It's like it. But is that not obvious? If you turn a crystal in the light, will not a different facet, catch the light, will not a different facet catch the light than the one previous? However, what bothers me is that I only, for instance, what bothers me in my relationship to other people is I like certain aspects of them and I don't like other aspects. And other people may like, like you said, the idea of judging, other people may like certain aspects of me and not other people may like.
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different facet, catch the light, will not a different facet catch the light than the one previous? However, what bothers me is that I only, for instance, what bothers me in my relationship to other people is I like certain aspects of them and I don't like other aspects. And other people may like, like you said, the idea of judging, other people may like certain aspects of me and not other people may like. others and therefore maybe I should all I get what think well I should only show these certain aspects to this person because if I should understand you are only judging yourself so if I didn't when you do not judge yourself you will not attract individuals who will judge you okay because you will not need to reflect that to yourself because when I feel like I I have to only reflect certain aspects of myself to people. It's tiring. It's like they can't let those other aspects sneak out, you know? And in one life or another, they will anyway. Why not right now? Thank you. All right, thank you. Bashar? Yes. Did you have questions? Yes, I have. Hi Bashar. Yes. How are you doing? Perfect. How are you? I'm doing much better, thank you. Much better. Well, a few months ago when I came to see I wasn't doing great, but I'm doing great. You were doing perfectly for what you were doing then. You are doing perfectly what you are doing now. I know. We know. It's why we are teasing you. Anyway, I just wanted to give you my greetings. Thank you. And I have a couple of questions. Do you know an entity? Do you mean Ramfa? Yes, I do. To some degree. He was honored about 35. 35,000 years ago. Yes. And he's channeling now to a lady. Yes. The Knight. Yes. Jay Z. Jay Z. That's right. Do you have... Can we... Simply this! That being is a reflection and an opportunity for every individual that comes into contact with that being to recognize their own godhood. Their own enlightenment. Yes. You follow me. Yes. Many individuals interpret many of the messages from that being as being something negative. Understand in this way it is only a reflection from that being of the ideas you carry within yourselves. There is nothing in this way being put forth that is in your terms egotistical. In declaring itself to be an enlightened one, it is only a reflection of the idea if you listen to all the words that each and every word one of you are also the enlightened ones. That's right. No, I do believe that and I saw that. Yes. And I know what he means. And I know that we are all enlightened. Yes. And he calls himself... Yes. And, well, I really enjoy him. No, thank you so we. It was really, really good. Good. There is also another... There's also another... Yes.
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listen to all the words that each and every word one of you are also the enlightened ones. That's right. No, I do believe that and I saw that. Yes. And I know what he means. And I know that we are all enlightened. Yes. And he calls himself... Yes. And, well, I really enjoy him. No, thank you so we. It was really, really good. Good. There is also another... There's also another... Yes. What does it mean exactly when I will send you a runner? What it means, quote unquote, exactly, is that there is energy being shared by your willingness to be attracted to that entity that you and that entity will co-create or spur into creation a messenger to yourself from yourself. And that simply that entity recognizes it as a separate consciousness that you have created and simply urges through your willingness to be in proximity to that entity that that runner or messenger shall now proceed. It's simply a reflection of your own willingness at that point to begin to talk to your higher consciousness. What form does that runner come in? Many different ways. Okay, thank you very much, Bashar. I have another question. Yes. Have you heard about Anika? Yes. Can you tell me anything about Amika, please? Only this. At this time, again, recognize simply that each individual in creating their own representational viewpoint of who and what they are and what they are connected to always can only speak for themselves. If you vibrate in accord to some of the ideas, then use them as your own valid tools. Ideas you do not vibrate in accord to go somewhere else. You can come and go. without judging completely one way or another, but simply knowing what you prefer. If there are some things you prefer, use them. If there are others you do not prefer, do not use them. You follow me? Yes. I went to see her and I really judged her, actually. I told... All right. I even told her in a group that she was crazy. All right. Understand. What is what I've ever seen? Yes, yes. Yes. Your opportunity to see the judge within yourself. What matter to you, what the individual creates for herself? If you recognize your own godhood, your own creatorhood, then you recognize what portions in this way are alike within her viewpoint and what portions are not, and make your preference, but not a judgment. Right, right. Yeah, I realize that that I should not have made a judgment, but I would have made of judgment, but I think it's when I said that, I agreed because I realized that I had no dependency on what she was saying. Understand she also attracted you to say that. That's right.
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in this way are alike within her viewpoint and what portions are not, and make your preference, but not a judgment. Right, right. Yeah, I realize that that I should not have made a judgment, but I would have made of judgment, but I think it's when I said that, I agreed because I realized that I had no dependency on what she was saying. Understand she also attracted you to say that. That's right. That's what it did for me was that I just, that I really recognized myself and it made me very whole at that point because then I knew that I had the only way for me to be, to be holding. to be whole was to be true to myself. Very good. Then understand also that in allowing yourselves to be attracted together, you each have provided truly a service for each other. Thank you. Thank you very much. Yes. Um, I'm the... What was that flower again? You're the red puppy. Yeah, I'm the red puppy. Yes. Well, the thing is, is like Steve said six years ago, I was Yes. And they're... All right. Now, recognize that you are sharing. You are always sharing by your speech, by your presence, by your emotions, by your willingness, by your creations, by the fact that you are physically real, you are sharing. Do not judge yourself. for knowing what you are doing. You are doing what you have chosen to do, no matter what it is in this way. And understand, there is no need to feel in your terms bad about the idea of how you feel you are now expressing or not expressing yourself. You are expressing yourself in whatever way you require yourself to come to certain conclusions within your own mentality about who and what you are. you are. Yeah, but if the expression is not... If the expression is more of a lie than it is a truth, then I'm... More of a lie? Okay, here we go. I fucked up already. No, you need not. You can never do so. But you are judging yourself. Yeah. Um... What is a lie and what is truth? Who the hell knows? Oh, thank you. Does that take some of the burden off it? Kind of, but you see, I want... Yes. Use your own words. Allow me to tell you, we do not create the idea of the idea of needing patience. We will wait for you. for you. We do not need patience. Every moment of sharing with you is a joy. Oh, very good. Very good. Would you like to do that again? Deep breath in, big sigh out. How does that feel? Like I'm getting closer to what I can't say. Right. One more good. time.
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words. Allow me to tell you, we do not create the idea of the idea of needing patience. We will wait for you. for you. We do not need patience. Every moment of sharing with you is a joy. Oh, very good. Very good. Would you like to do that again? Deep breath in, big sigh out. How does that feel? Like I'm getting closer to what I can't say. Right. One more good. time. While you are doing that for a while, allow me to point out that even in your society, what you call your medical practitioners, this is one of the ideas some of them begin to look for when they have in your terms a patient that is recovering from something. When they know that the patient begins to sigh in that manner, they know that the patient is beginning to take back into their own hands the responsibility for their lives and why. they have created. Thus they can stop, quote-unquote, worrying about them. Okay. All right. All right. We will ask you some questions. Can't you just get it? We will ask you some questions. Understand that in this manner, this is our version of getting it. And your version of co-creating it. No. No. How or what? Do you see yourself in your physical life doing that you enjoy, that excites you? How or what? If you felt good, then you obviously understood it on some level. Understand we are talking to every level of you, not just your physical consciousness. Okay. You are very, very, very. Very, very. vivid imagination, yes? Yeah, my mother told me now. Yes. Go ahead and use it right now. Create your feelings and your pictures. Are you doing in your life what most excites you? Yes or no? Yeah, I guess so. You guess? Well, can it? Yes. Oh, thank you. Conviction. Very good. Conviction. What is this, pray tell, that you are doing that excites you so much. All right, as you wish. I can't put that into words like the rest of everything else. You cannot? You already have. Have you put it into physical reality? For yourself. All right. Is it something that you are willing or not willing to share with anyone else? No. Willing, but... All right. Remember what we said about conviction. Do you feel that if you share the idea you are going to be judged? No, crucified. What is the difference? Yeah. Why? Why? I don't know and all that kind of shit, but... All right. Very good. Now, this idea that excites you, it is something then... May we assume that if you do it, you do it alone? Or is it not something that you do it alone? something that you do, but only something that you feel and think. All right. Is there anyone who has ever seen or shared in the doing of this thing that you are reluctant to share?
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kind of shit, but... All right. Very good. Now, this idea that excites you, it is something then... May we assume that if you do it, you do it alone? Or is it not something that you do it alone? something that you do, but only something that you feel and think. All right. Is there anyone who has ever seen or shared in the doing of this thing that you are reluctant to share? Not on this point. All right. Now, let your imagination play out. Imagine for a moment that you do share it. And imagine that you do share it. are, as you say, crucified for sharing it. Go through the entire scenario. Live it up. Act it out. In your imagination, right now, to the hilt. All the wailing and gnashing and weeping, everything. Well, you don't feel that that kind of holds like any water. Oh, do you mean that is a little bit too intense? No. It is not too intense? It's kind of sliding off the side. the side. Sliding off the side of what? And sliding into what? What I don't think you... What I don't think you're under... Wait a minute. All right. Are you speaking of your sanity? No. All right. Well, I could question about time. No. No, I think, I think... She may have been insane, but I'm not. She who? And what is insanity? Do you not understand that by the strictest definition, from our point of view, every being in the universe is insane? Yeah, I... Insanity is not... Then what kind of sliding are you talking about? From what into what? I... What I have in my thoughts and what you're communicating doesn't... It's like... Do you know why? Yeah, because I haven't... Very good. Because you are not willing to have the conviction of your beliefs. Thus it is not real. Yeah, but it just could be coming out of the whole... Could be coming out of the whole what? I have to plug my ears. So I can't hear me talk. All right. Very creative. Before you say anything, may I ask you a question? Mm-hmm. Do you think that once you say what you are going to say, if you find that it may not be so unusual after all, do you think you might be disappointed? Hmm. No, you see, if I say what I'm going to say, then there's a whole billions of stuff that I have to deal with that, like... If this is not true, then great, the rest of anything is true either. But if this is true, then I have a whole thing I have to deal with and I... But truth is relative. Yeah, I know. I know all that stuff. Understand one thing. All that stuff is what creates your real reality.
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I'm going to say, then there's a whole billions of stuff that I have to deal with that, like... If this is not true, then great, the rest of anything is true either. But if this is true, then I have a whole thing I have to deal with and I... But truth is relative. Yeah, I know. I know all that stuff. Understand one thing. All that stuff is what creates your real reality. As we said, philosophy is all well and good to think of it as and good to think of it as something that is simply a separate mental discipline, but your philosophy is responsible for the creation of the way your reality manifests. That is the only truth, and you can make it whatever kind of truth you want. Positive or negative. Depends on how you are willing to see yourself. Your entire reality is a product of what you believe yourself to be. Nothing. more and nothing less. Therefore, the idea that if this is true, has really no weight. Simply, the question is, if you are choosing to consider this idea to be valid for you, then it carries weight in your reality and will become your reality. If you do not consider it to be valid, then you are experiencing something else. And because every idea is valid equally, then you can choose whatever idea you want because no one idea is any more weighty than any other idea. And does not have any more power to enforce itself than any other idea does. You are the only one who gives empowerment to the validity of a situation. Now, will that make it somewhat easier to share the idea? Now that you know it is not some ultimate truth, but simply a way of looking at something. Okay, well. Well, let me get myself here so quickly. Now, realize, of course, you know, we are not having to do anything. You are sharing, allow me to remind you, allow me to remind you that always, when you share, When you share, even in the way you are sharing right now without having said a word, you are teaching. You are sharing, you are teaching, you are learning, you are allowing all these other individuals to be learning aspects of their own personalities that they have not seen before. Not ready for what? Hey, we're missing some. Let us be released. Alright, alright, right. Everybody! Shh! Proceed at your own pace. We are simply reminding you that anything that you share is worth learning. Are you still cool? Oh yeah, I forgot it was being there with it. Are you sitting up straight? Mm-hmm. All right. Are you throwing your shoulders back? No. No. Why not? I didn't think of it. Go ahead. Is that being cool? It is having some conviction. Changing your physiology will change your emotionality. Because they are always connected. Therefore! Okay. Speak. Yes. Amongst anyone, I speak. Yes.
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that you share is worth learning. Are you still cool? Oh yeah, I forgot it was being there with it. Are you sitting up straight? Mm-hmm. All right. Are you throwing your shoulders back? No. No. Why not? I didn't think of it. Go ahead. Is that being cool? It is having some conviction. Changing your physiology will change your emotionality. Because they are always connected. Therefore! Okay. Speak. Yes. Amongst anyone, I speak. Yes. You are always speaking to the world within you. Yeah. Always. You are the world. I'm not the one. That? Had. Yes. This body. Yes. This body. When? Six years ago. You are trying to say you are walking? No. What are you trying to say? Then I'm here and that one's not. Yes, so. Everyone always changes. Everyone in the very next moment because you are creating every moment that exists is not the same person or body that they were in the last moment. Or six years ago. Everyone is always changing. You, in every moment of time, are not the same person and not the same body. Try defining one. The idea in your terminology of a quote-unquote walk-in is that when one spiritual soul entity leaves a physical form, that is what you call death, but the body in this way is then occupied by another non-physical soul, not needing to experience the birth process, but continues on in the same body and examines and explores their life in physicality from that point forward, not the same consciousness. Yes. Yes. That's a walk-in. Is it a valid concept? Of course. It is rare, but it does happen. How do you feel? Thank you. I don't know. Yes, you do. Because you laughed, which allowed you to know, you were still. You allowed you to know you were centered. Laughing is centering. May I ask you another question? Mm-hmm. You are not sure. All right. Are you sure? I may ask you another question? No, I just feel the pressure of having to be the mother of the daughter that's... But you chose it? Yeah. But... Yeah, but... But nothing. I mean, you know, it's like I handled all that. Handled it where? Well, they have their life and I have mine. Yes, so. And you are obviously sharing to some extent in that they agreed... They agreed to have, whether they consciously realize it or not, someone who would create the situation for themselves. Yeah, they did. All right then. Lighten up. You have chosen it, they have chosen it, you have all chosen it, so what? Not boiling. All right. Then why are you allowing yourself to judge yourself for this? If that is the way you feel. Can you not love them? Yeah, I do love them. But not as my parents. So what? Everyone has been everyone else's parents anyway. Yeah, but they don't understand that. So what?
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did. All right then. Lighten up. You have chosen it, they have chosen it, you have all chosen it, so what? Not boiling. All right. Then why are you allowing yourself to judge yourself for this? If that is the way you feel. Can you not love them? Yeah, I do love them. But not as my parents. So what? Everyone has been everyone else's parents anyway. Yeah, but they don't understand that. So what? Express your unconditional love and allow them to understand it on whatever level for them it is valid. Why take it personally? You know who and what you are and what you are doing? Love them. You know it will all equal out anyway. You know that in your higher consciousness is you are always in communication and all of you know exactly what is going on. Yes, I would. Okay. Does that not feel good? Oh, it feels like a burden has been lifted. Well, you have done all the lifting. Yeah, I know, but you know. Yeah, I know, but you know, all right. Very colorful. Now, what will you do? Now, what will you do? Get used to this. And what else? You're already used to it. But not publicly. What would you like to do? I'm like to do. Um, no, no, I just got to do what I know I have to do. Which is. May I suggest that... Stop throwing out everything I write for one thing. Right, for one thing. All right. Very good. Very good. Stop trying to belong where I don't. But you do. Yeah. Where I belong, where I create. Yes. What is my reality. Yes! Right. Not what others tell me is my reality or is their reality that I've got to to fucking agree to. Very good. But in this way, recognize. As we have said, by analogy, you do not get peace by hating war. You get peace by loving peace. Love yourself. Oh, but I'm supposed to hate more, you see. Who says? We know you are joking. Exactly. Recognize, simply in this way, that your unconditional love for yourself and for them will allow you to not have to try. try to belong anywhere, since wherever you are is where you belong. We will extend our unconditional love and appreciation to you for allowing yourself to be a willing reflection of the idea of your agreement of the mass conscious transformation taking place within your civilization at this time, so that there may be that much more awareness of all that is for all beings within all that is to explore. Thank you for being a willing reflection and a sharing and a teaching and a learning simultaneously. Enjoy yourself. We enjoy you very much. We thank you for your willingness to have conviction that you deserve to exist as you know. as you know yourself to be. You will not have to do anything to exist.
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may be that much more awareness of all that is for all beings within all that is to explore. Thank you for being a willing reflection and a sharing and a teaching and a learning simultaneously. Enjoy yourself. We enjoy you very much. We thank you for your willingness to have conviction that you deserve to exist as you know. as you know yourself to be. You will not have to do anything to exist. Creation created you without you having to do anything to deserve it. Give yourself the same break. Sound like a deal? It's fine me. Thank you! Thank you. Michelle. Yes. I'm going to change the topic. I want to ask you about when we're choosing and creating something that involves another. Yes. Do we impinge upon their choice if we're more powerful in our creating? You are not ever more powerful in your creating. You are all equal, no matter what you create with your equal power, even if it is a sense of less power. less power. You are equal in creating that idea. It is always a co-creation by agreement. This does not excuse the idea of perpetration, of enforcement, of domination over another, but recognize it is still a co-arrangement because one is exploring the idea of forcing and one is exploring the idea of victimhood. But your responsibility to your yourself and to everyone else, not for everyone else, but to everyone else, is to allow yourself to know you are completely all equally empowered. And thus you can recognize that when someone is creating victimhood, it is equal to the idea, any idea you could create, and you don't have to play that game if you do not want to, you do not have to be the enforcer. Your responsibility is to simply know that you are as powerful as you need to be to have anything you want without hurting anyone else. And you can teach them this too, but if they are not willing to understand it, that is their choice. You don't have to be responsible for their choice, but you can be responsible to them by being the most total you you can be. So that if they choose the idea of that same self-empowerment for themselves, they can see it reflected in you and have something to choose from. You follow me. I think so. Even if I choose like to have a relationship with a person, they have the choice to say no. And am I choosing that? No. Understand simply with the idea you call relationships, however. More often than not, in your civilization, it has been a matter of needing to create a relationship in order to feel complete. When you know you are already complete, then you can choose to share a relationship. You follow me. Thank you. For sure. You, than you. I have a question from our last sharing. Yes.
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to say no. And am I choosing that? No. Understand simply with the idea you call relationships, however. More often than not, in your civilization, it has been a matter of needing to create a relationship in order to feel complete. When you know you are already complete, then you can choose to share a relationship. You follow me. Thank you. For sure. You, than you. I have a question from our last sharing. Yes. We were talking about the copper disk and the electromagnets. Yes. How are the electromagnets to be mounted? Are there supposed to be in a circle around the disk? Yes. Okay. And could you tell me again which folds are supposed to be towards the disk? Either. All the same. All the same, however. Is there any specific distance it must be from the disk? Close. In your terms, approximately one-eighth of your inch no more. Thank you. I thought that the north-south polarity was to align with the axis of the disk. No. No, it's to be a circumference around the disk. Yeah, I know, but I mean, speaking of the idea of parallel to the axis of the disk. You may place one of the poles toward the disc in the plane. Oh, okay. Well, on that same idea. One moment. All right. Female. Are you through? No. All right. One more question. Okay. Now, the disk is six inches wide, okay. And we're going to have 20 electromagnets surrounding the disk. in a circle. Yes. They ought to be in the plane of a disc, right? Yes. Okay, that's all I have to ask. Thank you. Now, you can vary this in whatever way. You deem appropriate within your own imagination and see what happens. Thank you. Yes. Earlier this evening, you were discussing personality and avoiding people that create conflict in your life. Avoiding? We're not talking about avoiding anything. Or not creating. Not attracting. Not attracting. Yes. And yet I find that often when I find myself in situations, for instance, my roommate right now, and I seem to run into conflicts. All right. And I find that that says something about me that I have to work out. In a sense. Also understand this. You can many times simply be being absurd. being observed.