Creative Conflict (Part 2 of 4)

Do you understand what I am saying what I am saying? Yes, I hear you. Does that tell you something? What does that tell you? It tells that my fear is coming down to manifest. Is the very thing itself, is the very thing itself that will bring about the reality you fear? The expression of your emotionality in a constructive way is not what will bring it out. The fear itself of expressing your emotionality is what is bringing about what you fear your emotionality will bring about. That's the paradox. You follow? Yes, I hear you. So then the question is how do I get over that? All right now, pay attention. Here is where you are splitting yourself, right here. I have just told you that the fear itself is causing what you fear will happen. And yet knowing that wasn't enough to let go of the fear? How do I let cause of the fear? You see, you're it again. You think that some extra process is necessary. Knowing, accepting fully, what I have just told you will be the process. There is nothing additional required. No other additional process is necessary if you understand that the fear itself is causing what you fear. Why would you hold on to it? Why wouldn't it simply automatically be let go of? Why would you need to do anything special to let go of it? The question is, knowing that, knowing that the fear is the thing that's creating what you say you don't want, why are you still holding on to it? It is not about learning to have a process of letting it go. It's about understanding that you are choosing to keep it. Because if you didn't choose to keep it, it would be gone. Because nothing can stay in your reality that you do not choose to keep. So it's not about learning how to get rid of it or let it go. It's about understanding why you think it's important to hold on to it. How does it serve you to hold on to that fear? You say on one hand that you are afraid of the very thing that the fear is causing. And yet knowing that is not enough for you to let go of the fear. Why not? How is the fear serving you? Why is the fear and keeping the fear more important than letting it go? if it's creating what you don't want why are you saying that there are some apparently some payoffs are so that I'm getting out of yes for everything that all of you do you have invented in your mind a payoff because you don't do anything without a reason you don't experience any reality without being motivated to choose that reality you're motivated are based on the definitions you have of what you have been taught to perceive as more pleasurable and less painful than something else.

there are some apparently some payoffs are so that I'm getting out of yes for everything that all of you do you have invented in your mind a payoff because you don't do anything without a reason you don't experience any reality without being motivated to choose that reality you're motivated are based on the definitions you have of what you have been taught to perceive as more pleasurable and less painful than something else. Holding on to the fear, if that's what you're doing, must therefore be being defined by you as the lesser of two evils. Otherwise it would disappear instantly. So, how is it that you're defined by you as the lesser of two evils? your fear that makes you have the motivation to continue to experience it. That's the question. Or in knowing that expressing your emotions is the lesser of two evils, why then is that not sufficient knowledge to allow you to begin to let yourself feel and let go of the fear of feeling? Why? Or is it? Is it enough? It's just knowing that the fear itself. fear itself is causing what you fear enough to let it go. Yes, no, maybe? Well, well, I find, you know, I'm in a certain pattern and it's kind of like I'm very much In a certain what? In a certain, what? In a certain. What? In a certain. What? In a certain what? In a certain what? You're not getting the point, are you? Choice. Choice. A pattern. A pattern. A habit is something that you do that you don't know you're doing. Once you know you're doing it, it's not a pattern. The pattern's gone. It's a choice if you keep doing it. The question is, why do you keep choosing it? It's not a pattern, it's a choice. A pattern is something that you do unconsciously. You don't know you're doing it, but you know you're doing this. So you're choosing it. It's not a pattern. Patterns gone. Once you know it's a pattern, once you know it's a habit, once you know you've been doing something. by habit you don't have the habit anymore the knowledge of the habit erases the habit if you keep doing it you're doing it for your own reasons you have to find out what those reasons are you cannot blame it on pattern pattern is inertia pattern is momentum if you know it's there the momentum is gone the inertia is gone knowledge erases momentum and inertia you start from scratch zero as soon as you're aware of it soon as you're aware you have been doing it it's gone so if you keep repeating the behavior it's because something in your definition says you should choose to you can't blame it on pattern anymore make sense yes is there a time factory in all this like there might be change instantly from our but you can you can hard to do probably not necessarily

scratch zero as soon as you're aware of it soon as you're aware you have been doing it it's gone so if you keep repeating the behavior it's because something in your definition says you should choose to you can't blame it on pattern anymore make sense yes is there a time factory in all this like there might be change instantly from our but you can you can hard to do probably not necessarily the idea of how fast or how slow that occurs is again the product of whatever it is you believe you need to understand in order to be willing to let it change but that's up to you that pacing is completely up to you it's not that it's more or less difficult to change or that it must take more or less time it's completely taking its queue based on your willingness to let it be all right for the change to occur and what that change implies to your belief system. So for example, an individual who senses that allowing themselves to change would mean that there would be no more excuse to not express their full power as a being and if they are afraid of doing that for some reason because they have defined that expressing your full power is negative, then they will regulate themselves to make it take more time to change because they are not willing to believe that expressing the full power is a beneficial thing so they will create the time it takes but if instantaneously you understand that being your full self is who you truly choose to be and you have no definition and no reason to prevent yourself from believing that then the change will be instantaneous that's all there is to it does that make sense yeah so what you're saying in my case that I have made a choice that says that letting the feeling out totally and being totally in touch with those is dangerous and I'm gradually working towards doing more of that and that's all right choice that's all right the first step the first step in allowing yourself to go faster is to let the pace you're going at be all right and not be in a hurry to go faster that's the paradox you have to be all right with where you're at and how you're doing it paradoxically in order to do it differently you understand the paradox yeah okay I understand so if you are going at a certain rate don't be impatient with it acknowledge that that is the rate you have chosen you have decided for one reason or another for one definition or another is correct for you as soon as you accept that that's what you've done not accept the pace but accept that that's what you chose you can then allow the pace change you follow yes I do is it along those lines helpful to me to work

rate don't be impatient with it acknowledge that that is the rate you have chosen you have decided for one reason or another for one definition or another is correct for you as soon as you accept that that's what you've done not accept the pace but accept that that's what you chose you can then allow the pace change you follow yes I do is it along those lines helpful to me to work with people that are more sensitive to feelings and kind of help point the way can be do you think or believe that it would be helpful yes well there you go your choice whatever you feel works do it that's the point because it's all in your hands all in your hand could I just go back to when you you and I just started this discussion you said that for MS toxic things were kind of causing MS and then we went on to the emotional thing the emotional center the emotional fear has allowed you to physically attract into your body those kinds of things that are vibrationally representative of the emotional fear which generally speaking translates physically in your reality as toxins poisons things of that nature So, now you may need some assistance in clarifying the physical body as well as simultaneously clarifying the emotional self. Because you have allowed the emotional self to cross the threshold into physiological manifestation. Again, don't judge yourself negative for having done so. Allow yourself to recognize simply what has happened and allow yourself to start now knowing that as you be able to recognize simply what has happened and allow yourself to start now knowing that as you begin to clarify your inner work, you will also simultaneously attract yourself to circumstances and situations that will allow you to clarify the outer work. And that right now, anything that you already are aware of that would be beneficial in clarifying the body such as water intake, not putting any more toxins in your body and those kinds of things, those things can be done to help lighten up. your body so that the emotional work can also simultaneously be easier. You can work it from both directions simultaneously. You follow that? Yes. Does that help you? Yeah, it does. Let me just ask one other question. I don't let you. Which has to do with the fact that I have in the past always surrounded myself with white light to keep off negative energies. I thought you said you were not into needing protection. Did you lie? I guess when I said that, I meant protections for specific negative energies rather than... What's the difference? It is not that it is wrong to allow yourself to surround yourself with white light, for you are made of light, but watch your reasons for doing so.

have in the past always surrounded myself with white light to keep off negative energies. I thought you said you were not into needing protection. Did you lie? I guess when I said that, I meant protections for specific negative energies rather than... What's the difference? It is not that it is wrong to allow yourself to surround yourself with white light, for you are made of light, but watch your reasons for doing so. If you're surrounding yourself with white light because you know it is an expression of your love and your joy. That's one thing. If you feel that you absolutely must surround yourself with white light, or you will not be safeguarded from other things you ascribe more power to, then you may wish to reconsider your reasons for doing it that way. You follow? Yes, and the color of the light, then doesn't really matter. Some people seem to think that white light also attracts. It doesn't really matter, but again, as long as your consciousness is divided, into certain kinds of levels, then for some people, it might matter, because their consciousness might be on a certain wavelength or spectrum that will allow them to identify more strongly with a particular color than another. You follow? The point is simply be true to yourself, but be true to yourself for positive reasons, for joyful reasons, and not use that in the sense of believing that you actually are at the mercy of something if you don't do that. You follow? Yes, I believe I am in that spot that you just described that I don't feel particularly locked into. All right, but we have had this discussion because obviously there was some room for adjustment in that belief system. Otherwise, we would not have talked about this at all. So, perhaps at this point, you are different and a different person. Act like it, and your reality will reflect the difference. Thank you. Thank you very much. You! Good day. Good evening to you. All right. Do human men have hybrid children? Well, yes, in the sense that sometimes genetic material from the males of your species have been utilized to generate hybrids, yes. So do I have any? Yes. And so what is the implication for me to have that? just revealed to me what do you want it to be what's your opinion of it what's yours emptiness nothingness but i think it's a probably like a recent acquisition in the last 13 months emptiness nothingness i will respond with my own version of that word nonsense you would not have asked the question had it meant nothing because do you want to try again and be more honest i don't want to be divisive in my thinking. I wish to approach it from a unified perspective. So it's all part of the universal. First then, allow yourself to see the obvious.

recent acquisition in the last 13 months emptiness nothingness i will respond with my own version of that word nonsense you would not have asked the question had it meant nothing because do you want to try again and be more honest i don't want to be divisive in my thinking. I wish to approach it from a unified perspective. So it's all part of the universal. First then, allow yourself to see the obvious. If you ask such a question, if such a question is on your mind, obviously when someone asks you, what do you feel about it, what's your opinion about it? You can't really truthfully and honestly respond nothing in emptiness. You are not being self-investigative. Well, I'm not like some of the other people here. You don't have to be. that are obsessed with their hybrid children i'm not obsessed one moment one moment first of all understand that these individuals are not necessarily obsessed you understand that in your language that is usually a derisive term i know but that's all they ask not necessarily it's all you've heard which might tell you something else about your timing i'm curious obviously yeah all right then if that's what you have focused on that tells you something now what Why are you carrying? What meaning do you give it? Because I was asking Bob Johnson, you know, that everyone always, all the women talk about their hybrid children. And so I jokingly said to him one day, hey, why don't any men talk about their hybrid children? Good question! So you thought you'd be the first? And I kind of knew, I kind of knew that I have some, but it was not a, it's not a, it's not the relevant issue. The relevant issue is... What is? What is the relevant issue? That is what I'm asking you. What is the relevant issue? You were about to tell me. Don't stop. No, I was phrasing that... You see, I have the South African accent, so it's hard for you to read me, but... No, it's not. It's not hard to read you at all. You are exceedingly transparent to us. Well, thank you. So anyway... So what is the relevant issue? No, that is the fundamental issue. That is the fundamental issue. question, what is the, what's the relevant, uh, what's the relevant elements? All right, I'll play the game with you. All right. Let's go from another direction. Let's say you are all of a sudden attracted to go to a certain place on your planet that is relatively remote. Are you with me so far? Yes, sir. Oh, sir. All right. Formality. All right. Then, suddenly, as you are standing there or sitting there or lying down or whatever it may be. And you spend time wondering why am I here, why was I attracted to come here, and nothing is revealing itself.

say you are all of a sudden attracted to go to a certain place on your planet that is relatively remote. Are you with me so far? Yes, sir. Oh, sir. All right. Formality. All right. Then, suddenly, as you are standing there or sitting there or lying down or whatever it may be. And you spend time wondering why am I here, why was I attracted to come here, and nothing is revealing itself. Suddenly, as you are about to go, suddenly, this feeling overcomes you. No, don't leave yet. Turn around. And as you turn around, suddenly, you are confronted with the image of this being standing before you. It looks something like you, but not quite. You instantly sense it is not exactly fully human. The depth, the focus, the focus, the immediacy, the presence, the presence behind its presence behind its eyes, is stronger than anything you have ever witnessed from any human. I ask the question, if this were, if, if, if this were to occur, how would you feel? What would you do? What would you say? How would you act? What would it mean? It would mean tremendous joy. Why? Let's stay with that for a moment. Why? Because I think I would be in awe of this all-knowing, all-loving, all-loving giant. Why would that bring you joy? Why would being in awe of something equate to joy? Does it? Because I could just be in absolute silence and be in that silence. That's all. All right. Are you by implication saying that it takes an incident of this nature for you to feel that awe, that joy, and that silence, and that you cannot feel it in any other way? I can feel it if I visualize what you've just described. Were you capable of feeling it before I described it? Yes. You sounded hesitant. Well, your words were also very sweet. Well, they weren't mine. Well, there was poetry there. But they were your words. Do you not understand that I am drawing this from your soul? Yeah, that's probably why I'm reflecting it back that it was very enjoyable. All right. But the point is, is I have also illustrated to you that when you think of that subject in this way, you will understand your relationship to it and will not say, I feel nothing, an emptiness. I have shown you that far from it, when you really really, allow yourself to experience your relationship to these beings, to these children. Instead, you feel great joy and mystery and profundity. Far cry from emptiness and nothingness. So if you get that point, you can now take this in your own time, in your own leisure, in your own way, and apply the same kind of idea to this subject or to any other subject and see the difference. using my illustration as an example. And do a meditation? If you wish, it's up to you. The style.

you feel great joy and mystery and profundity. Far cry from emptiness and nothingness. So if you get that point, you can now take this in your own time, in your own leisure, in your own way, and apply the same kind of idea to this subject or to any other subject and see the difference. using my illustration as an example. And do a meditation? If you wish, it's up to you. The style. And just give me a style of the meditation again? No, that's up to you. Well, just give you some clue. It's up to you. What? Stronger clue can I give you than to tell you it's up to you. Don't you understand that that means that whatever you decide will be accurate for you? What is it I'm deciding? How to meditate, if that's what you want to do. To elicit what? To elicit what? yourself to gain a relationship and the appropriate perspective as it relates to you to this and any other subject you are uncertain of your relationship too. And this subject is what or who? We used this particular subject of the hybrid children because you brought it up. But I am simply letting you know that whether it be that subject or any other subject, you can use the same basic idea that we have just illustrated to find out what your relationship is to it and what the experience of your relationship to it would be for you. And it is up to you. you to alter that idea or that visualization or that meditation in any way shape or form your imagination so desires because your imagination will know how to change it to fit the changes going on appropriately within your consciousness. I appreciate that. All right. One or two questions. I'm thinking of purchasing a place in what's known as Pacific Palisades. All right. Purchasing a condominium. Yes. I was wondering if you could suggest. not a real estate agent. Because I'm from San Francisco. I am not a real estate agent. No, that's not the question. Oh, yes, it is. No, no, no, no. We'll see. Okay. The question is, I've lived in Los Angeles before. Oh, alright. I know it's a different vibration in San Francisco. Yes. Could you suggest a meditation for me to better help me to A? You obviously did not pay attention to the last answer I gave you. All right. All right. All right. Did I not anticipate the idea that you would want to apply that illustration and that meditational technique to any other circumstance? And thus did I not already tell you you could apply it to any other circumstance? Sorry. So did I not already answer your question? All right. All right. Easy. Yes? All right, thank you. That's why I said I'm not a real estate agent because that was the only thing remaining to say to you. I had already answered you.

would want to apply that illustration and that meditational technique to any other circumstance? And thus did I not already tell you you could apply it to any other circumstance? Sorry. So did I not already answer your question? All right. All right. Easy. Yes? All right, thank you. That's why I said I'm not a real estate agent because that was the only thing remaining to say to you. I had already answered you. All right. No, that's fantastic. Oh, my thank you. And what else? Everyone is so interested to ask about planets and life on other planets. Some people are, some people aren't. You know, just like a hybrid children. Some people are, some people aren't. Well, I'm really surprised nobody's ever asked. Yes. And if you really want to be revealing, it could be a really cool night. Before you continue, may I simply add, no one has asked in your presence. Correct. Thank you. What is NASA up to in a essay, the National Aeronautical Center? I understand what you're... What are they up to? What are they doing? What are they hope to achieve? But really what I really want to know is what are they withholding? Well, I am not going to necessarily be able to answer this in 25 words or less. But start out with the what are the withholding part? First of all, it would be misleading to say what are they withholding. Some individuals Individuals within that organization are aware of certain information that has to do with extraterrestrial consciousness, and they are aware that that information is being withheld and are to some degree participating in the withholding of that information from your general public. Some individuals, not the entire organization. You understand how important it is to make that differentiation? Yes. So, some of those individuals are withholding that information. that information. Primarily, that kind of thing. A few, very few, very few, individuals are also, to some degree, not dispersing information that has to do with certain kinds of advanced technology that could alleviate some of the difficulties on your planet. Some individuals. Very few. In time, these things will leak out. In time, In time, your society will know these things. Again, when you say what do they wish to achieve, you are dealing with a number of different agendas because there are a number of different people that think that NASA is different things. Some individuals are doing it for very, very, what you would call, disciplined and scientific reasons for what you might call pure knowledge. Some individuals are doing it for what they think are the altruistic reasons of the betterment of humankind. Some individuals are are doing it for the sheer ecstasy of exploration and the acquisition of knowledge, there are any number of agendas of the individuals that are involved in that organization on your planet.

individuals are doing it for very, very, what you would call, disciplined and scientific reasons for what you might call pure knowledge. Some individuals are doing it for what they think are the altruistic reasons of the betterment of humankind. Some individuals are are doing it for the sheer ecstasy of exploration and the acquisition of knowledge, there are any number of agendas of the individuals that are involved in that organization on your planet. Now, also, of course, as many of you know, the idea is that in general for humankind, it will become necessary to some degree in some manner for you to explore beyond the boundaries of your own planet. I am going to be a little cryptic here, because I want you to really take some time to ponder this on your own time and ask yourself and look deep into your society, figure this out, and we can have a discussion about this at some other time. Why at this particular time is your society, your particular nation, deciding to go back to the moon? Don't answer me now, don't discuss it now, think about it. We'll talk about it some other time. Thank you. Good day. Good day. It is a perfect day. All right. Thank you. I'm happy to be here and happy to see you too. So to speak. Yes. Okay. I had a really very exciting experience last night. All right. I did not sleep very much, maybe in little bits and pieces. Is that the exciting experience? Well, yeah. What was exciting to me is that I seemed to be awake at four in the morning. Yes. I kept thinking, well, you know, you know, I really probably need some sleep. Maybe. Maybe not. But I'm functioning today very well, very comfortably. And I find this is so trippy because I can have a lot more time to do a lot more things if I don't have to sleep all the time. Yes. I love this. Now, again, it is neither right or wrong to have a particular lengthy or short sleep agenda. But as we have said many times, when many of you allow yourself to begin to key more strongly into your individual, natural, bio rhythm frequencies. Many of you may find that you are awake at certain hours that your society more typically will be asleep, but that falling into your natural biolrhythm will probably, for most individuals, allow you to recognize you don't necessarily need as much sleep as you think. I found this really wonderful. Yes. This goes to some degree, hand in hand, with also realizing that many of you don't necessarily need also as much food as you think. Thank you. Point taken. Well, I am not necessarily calling you out. I am just making a general connection, but you can take it personally if you wish. Well, I intend to. Oh, oh, I thank you.

need as much sleep as you think. I found this really wonderful. Yes. This goes to some degree, hand in hand, with also realizing that many of you don't necessarily need also as much food as you think. Thank you. Point taken. Well, I am not necessarily calling you out. I am just making a general connection, but you can take it personally if you wish. Well, I intend to. Oh, oh, I thank you. During this process, I had several things happen. One of the things that I'm recall now is that I was thinking of my mother and father who have not been walking around on the planet in the physical form for some time now. Is that a long-winded way of saying that they're dead? way of saying that they're dead. Well, that's one way of expressing. All right, thank you. But what came to me is this, I guess I'm thinking of Whitley Streber, striber, however you say it. Yes. And his thing about a relationship between what we sometimes call greys or extraterrestrials or whatever and those who are departed, so-called dead. And I had this little thing that maybe my mother and father were grays. I could kind of see them. Not directly, no. In that context, you have human parents, yes. Well, yeah, but I'm thinking when they go to the sub-life or the next, whatever it is... All of you have counterparts in all realities, really. Whatever you choose to focus on will make that stand out. I've been seeing that I have other expressions in many, many places, including these so-called beings that used to be creepy and scary, are really me looking at myself. In many ways, this is so. Okay. Do not deny them their own autonomy, but in many ways for you on a personal level, yes, as a reflection, this is so. Well, I'm becoming more comfortable with the whole thing. With your own creepiness? Yeah. Oh, all right. I kind of like it. Oh, all right, thank you. And I was thinking about the story that I wrote a number of years ago called The Dragon in the closet. Oh, all right, back to the closet. Yeah, well, when you were talking about talking of that, this came to me, and I noticed somewhat recently I've had thoughts running to or ideas about or interest in what are called reptile or reptilian beings. Yes. And recently I was a hearing of Sitchkin, Zachariah. Yes. Who talks of the creators or... Yes. I don't know if the word founders is correct here. No, not exactly. Okay. And then I started wondering, what is my connection with all of this, you know? An interesting and large-scale subject. Thank you.